Am I stressing over preparations, schedules, kids, work?
Where is my focus?
Is it inward or am I striving to be a light?
What is the condition of my heart?
Am I taking the time to cultivate relationships with others?
I've been asking myself these three questions every morning before I rustle the sheets and exit the covers. In the time between my eyes starting to flutter open and the pulling on of my sneakers, I'm working on being heart intentional.
I've found that it's not enough lately to simply pray before I rise...my thoughts are too scattered with the day scrolling behind my lids.
I have to give it all to Him...
He knows my needs, my plans, my hopes. He was there first. He created and gave me this beautiful life that I am so very privileged to experience. I do not take that lightly. I do sometimes lack in the remembrance of giving it all back to Him. I tend to take and hold on tightly, rather than releasing when the time comes... In the asking of three simple questions, I remember...It's not mine. It is His. He came to have a relationship with me.
I pause in wonder...
He came as a baby to poor parents. He was born in a manger, full of stinky, loud animals. He was human. He knows what this world holds and how we think, feel, and react. He came as a baby...because HE loves us.
His heart was intentional, His thoughts were for us, His focus was on a weary, dark world.
He came at Christmas.
It's about the coming. The showing up. The willingness to be used. That is what I'm hearing when I ask myself those three questions.
What do you hear when you ask yourself questions such as these? How are you preparing your heart for Christmas?
"Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you;
he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find
a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger..."
Luke 2: 11-12 NIV